A few days ago I ran into an old friend from freshman year–she congratulated my second job position and noted that I must feel so accomplished. I’m awkward with these types of things, and I hadn’t exactly advertised my second job outside of my friend group. I ended up just giving her a faltering smile while mumbling something about it not being a huge deal…. She didn’t take the bait….
“But you have your life together.” She looked down at my brown Lauren Conrad heels (a recent Goodwill find) and continued, “Heck, I can’t even wear heels much less walk all over campus in them!”
Topics turned towards the latest fashion trends on campus (we noted the high number of man-buns we had seen this semester), and I was happy to finally leave the awkwardness aside. But as my blister-covered feet headed back to my dorm, I couldn’t help but return to the initial conversation and ask myself why I bother to wear heels to work.
Confidence. This was the first word that came to mind for multiple reasons. Yes, I’ve been offered a fantastic opportunity to jump-start my career. I’m being paid to write, which is the dream of every English major. However, my life is far from “together”–I felt as if the blisters on my feet were enough proof of that. Besides, I certainly don’t ever feel confident at work. Mostly I feel like a little girl attempting to play an intense game of “grown-up,” except this time the too-big heels aren’t my mother’s and my paycheck isn’t fake…. Wearing heels is my personal reminder that I can rise to the occasion and that I can fill the shoes of those who have climbed the career ranks before me–it’s a reminder to stand tall even if I occasionally stumble.
Encouragement. Back to the blisters–as insane and painful as it sounds, slipping on a pair of heels is my morning pep-talk. Knowing that my feet might hurt later in the evening after a long day of work, classes, and even more work encourages me to work harder than ever before. A strong worth ethic is key to reaching goals, and wearing heels is a reminder that each step I take in closer to achieving my dreams.
Appearance. Even if I’m exhausted and sick, I feel so much more put together when slip on a pair of heels paired with a nice blazer. A nice pair of heels creates an appearance that says “I’m ready to balance the insanity of being a girl boss;” and when I’m constantly coming in contact with influential people, this polished appearance helps the first-impression anxieties. Sure, some people might say that this is a shallow or vain reason. However, it’s important to dress for success–heels are the ultimate sellout, because a professional appearance says I’m serious (even if I don’t know what I’m being serious about).
I guess it’s safe to say that I wear heels because I’m going to fake it until I make it.